Been a bit more reclusive recently, sorry about that, rest assured I'm still alive, still unharmed (within relevance) and so on. Or to your ears, "boring".
Keeping this one short.
Yes, my fingers were crossed.
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did? Yup.
--> Would you agree with their assessment in that context? Nope!
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases? Yup.
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'? Nope.
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see? Not as far as I know.
Have you spoken to yourself in public? Yup.
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people? Only because others forgot I wasn't speaking to them.
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself? Nope.
Have you spoken to inanimate objects? Does my computer count?
--> Have you received replies? ...Does my computer count?
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths? Nope.
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with? 0100111001101111011100000110010100101110
Have you had any violent mood swings? Nope.
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period? Yup.
--> Could this change be considered positive, contrary to recent experience? Dunno...
--> Could this change be considered negative? See previous...
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior? I've been eating a bit less...
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress? Nope.
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues? Again, no more than usual.
--> Have you seriously wished harm upon them? Again, no.
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions? Always.
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about? Yup.
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure? Would that be surprising at this point?
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input? Yes.
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human? God no.
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'? Nope.
Have you threatened to kill anybody? Offhandedly mentioned ripping off someone's head to use it as a pillow as they were making comments on my unusual posture while sleeping.
--> Multiple times? Nope.
--> Was it (exclusively) to deter future harmful action, i.e. "If you touch a hair on his/her head..."? Does it look like it was?
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody? No.
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind? Usually.
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'? I try.
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'? I try not.
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others? Admittedly? A little more these days.
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others? No...
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world? While daydreaming.
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason? No.
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake? Not that I remember.
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues? Nope.
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are? Perhaps I've been a little whiny...
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)? Nope.
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns? Nope.
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter? Heh.
And I saved this one for last cause it's... a little bit more important these days. Maybe I'll elaborate if it comes up, maybe I won't, but...
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences?
Definitely.
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Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Test Results #2
Couple days late on this test. Perhaps a slowed schedule is a sign I should keep an eye on? Heheh. Heheh. Heeeeeh.
Not really.
Elaine's... Poe's... Morningstar's... yeah. Mostly Elaine.
It's not creepy, is it? I mean, we weren't close, we only talked a couple times, but I've followed her work for as long as I've been in all of this and... back to 'yeah'.
Goddamn Blogger, still says she's following and...
Gonna hurry through this while I can still think straight.
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did? Not recently, must be an off-month?
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases? Nope.
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences? Yup.
--> If you weren't prone to it prior to exposure, have you been sleepwalking? Probably.
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'? Note while awake.
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see? Yup.
Have you spoken to yourself in public? Often.
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people? I should hope not.
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself? Once.
Have you spoken to inanimate objects? Nope.
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths? Only if 'nonononononono' counts.
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with? Ummm... no?
Have you had any violent mood swings? Not recently.
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period? In light of recent events, I'd say so.
--> Could this change be considered negative? Probably.
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior? I eat more slowly. Significant though? No.
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress? Nope.
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues? Same as last month.
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions? Yup.
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about? Yup, although I swear I heard that pothole cover move behind me.
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure? A-duh.
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input? Yes...
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human? Same number of limbs, still bound by gravity, still only about as psychic as people willing to think too hard on what I say are willing to let me be...
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'? No.
Have you threatened to kill anybody? I may have told a guy I was considering ripping out my own ribs just to silence him with them. No idea why I chose that route, I know.
--> Multiple times? Nope.
--> Was it (exclusively) to deter future harmful action, i.e. "If you touch a hair on his/her head..."? Only if the future harmful action was detrimental to my sanity.
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody? No.
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind? Like you wouldn't believe.
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'? Depends on who's asking.
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'? Depends on who's asking.
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others? ...
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others? -.-
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world? Daydreaming in class probably doesn't count here.
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason? No.
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake? Lapsed memory, sure. No blackouts though.
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues? Again, not indiscriminately.
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are? <.<
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)? Oh yes.
--> Did you make up the tune? No, Sondheim did.
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns? Not yet.
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter? Couple times.
Took me a bit longer to write this than I was expecting.
At least I can see it now though.
Not really.
Elaine's... Poe's... Morningstar's... yeah. Mostly Elaine.
It's not creepy, is it? I mean, we weren't close, we only talked a couple times, but I've followed her work for as long as I've been in all of this and... back to 'yeah'.
Goddamn Blogger, still says she's following and...
Gonna hurry through this while I can still think straight.
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did? Not recently, must be an off-month?
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases? Nope.
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences? Yup.
--> If you weren't prone to it prior to exposure, have you been sleepwalking? Probably.
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'? Note while awake.
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see? Yup.
Have you spoken to yourself in public? Often.
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people? I should hope not.
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself? Once.
Have you spoken to inanimate objects? Nope.
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths? Only if 'nonononononono' counts.
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with? Ummm... no?
Have you had any violent mood swings? Not recently.
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period? In light of recent events, I'd say so.
--> Could this change be considered negative? Probably.
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior? I eat more slowly. Significant though? No.
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress? Nope.
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues? Same as last month.
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions? Yup.
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about? Yup, although I swear I heard that pothole cover move behind me.
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure? A-duh.
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input? Yes...
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human? Same number of limbs, still bound by gravity, still only about as psychic as people willing to think too hard on what I say are willing to let me be...
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'? No.
Have you threatened to kill anybody? I may have told a guy I was considering ripping out my own ribs just to silence him with them. No idea why I chose that route, I know.
--> Multiple times? Nope.
--> Was it (exclusively) to deter future harmful action, i.e. "If you touch a hair on his/her head..."? Only if the future harmful action was detrimental to my sanity.
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody? No.
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind? Like you wouldn't believe.
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'? Depends on who's asking.
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'? Depends on who's asking.
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others? ...
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others? -.-
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world? Daydreaming in class probably doesn't count here.
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason? No.
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake? Lapsed memory, sure. No blackouts though.
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues? Again, not indiscriminately.
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are? <.<
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)? Oh yes.
--> Did you make up the tune? No, Sondheim did.
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns? Not yet.
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter? Couple times.
Took me a bit longer to write this than I was expecting.
At least I can see it now though.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Claustrophobia, and Test Results #1
FINALLY they're all gone! Now I can get to work on the quiz for the month!
Yeah... I should probably explain that first...
So yesterday was Pi Day. All a big joke in this area, really. Course I was too busy answering questions to do any eating of pies.
Remember when I said before that no proxies had come by yet? Congratulations to me then on my first.
I came home after class yesterday and funnily enough, the door to the house was unlocked. Normally this wouldn't be so unusual if my mother hadn't been out at the vet's office with the dogs (her car wasn't even in the driveway, and there was no barking).
I went over to my neighbor's place across the street and called the police- I've already mentioned the house was well-stocked with armaments, I'm not going inside alone when someone could take a sword off the wall and skewer me. Sure enough, squad car shows up, cops go in, ten minutes later a guy in a hoodie with (X) symbols on the back takes a flying leap over the fence and flees the neighborhood. Nobody caught up with him of course, which only serves to reassure me of the law enforcement system.
You know all those shows where someone becomes a vigilante because the police can't be trusted or are corrupt or can't handle 'the conspiracy'? Not so much of a case here; they're just kind of incompetent.
So we were asked some very vague questions (for the umpteenth time, no, I don't think he took anything Mr. Uniform), some guys (I'm really hoping they were CSI and not grifters) show up and take a bunch of pictures of the mess and all of the... art... he made on the walls, then we had painters in this morning, but they're gone now! So I have access to my computer again!
And of course since I'm here, it's been a month since I wrote up the quizzes to begin with, so time to give it a test run!
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did? Yup.
--> Would you agree with their assessment in that context? I can understand why they thought so.
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases? Nope.
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences? Now that I think about it, I had a pretty lucid dream last night...
--> If you weren't prone to it prior to exposure, have you been sleepwalking? Only if waking up on the floor of my room in front of the door counts. Which with my luck it probably does.
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'? Nope.
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see? Not really.
Have you spoken to yourself in public? All the time.
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people? Not recently.
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself? Nothing serious.
Have you spoken to inanimate objects? Nope.
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths? Nope.
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with? Umm... no?
Have you had any violent mood swings? Nope.
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period? Changes? Not really.
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior? Nope.
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress? ...I bought a new pair of shoes, but I doubt that counts...
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues? UNUSUALLY, no. USUALLY... a tad.
--> Have you seriously wished harm upon them? Nope.
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions? Usually.
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about? I wouldn't have thought so before yesterday.
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure? I probably should start thinking that now, shouldn't I?
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input? Yup.
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human? Heh, I wish.
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'? Nope.
Have you threatened to kill anybody? Not outright.
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody? Nope.
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind? ...Yes...
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'? I like to think so.
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'? I don't like to think so.
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others? No. More just... very confused by the events leading up to them.
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others? See previous.
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world? While daydreaming.
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason? Only when joking. Hence that 'creepy' commentary above.
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake? "Lapsed memory" is also usual, but nothing like a blackout.
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues? Not indiscriminately, but I do consider myself more intelligent than most of my classmates, although this is one of those 'hard to confirm or refute' cases. Otherwise, no.
--> Have you ever called them your minions, underlings, or other derivatives of servant? No, but I feel like I should now. Mua. Ha. Ha.
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are? I think I've done a decent job of handling things maturely.
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)? Nope.
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns? Noooooo.
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter? All the time.
...Right then.
No idea what to do now.
Wait?
Yeah... I should probably explain that first...
So yesterday was Pi Day. All a big joke in this area, really. Course I was too busy answering questions to do any eating of pies.
Remember when I said before that no proxies had come by yet? Congratulations to me then on my first.
I came home after class yesterday and funnily enough, the door to the house was unlocked. Normally this wouldn't be so unusual if my mother hadn't been out at the vet's office with the dogs (her car wasn't even in the driveway, and there was no barking).
I went over to my neighbor's place across the street and called the police- I've already mentioned the house was well-stocked with armaments, I'm not going inside alone when someone could take a sword off the wall and skewer me. Sure enough, squad car shows up, cops go in, ten minutes later a guy in a hoodie with (X) symbols on the back takes a flying leap over the fence and flees the neighborhood. Nobody caught up with him of course, which only serves to reassure me of the law enforcement system.
You know all those shows where someone becomes a vigilante because the police can't be trusted or are corrupt or can't handle 'the conspiracy'? Not so much of a case here; they're just kind of incompetent.
So we were asked some very vague questions (for the umpteenth time, no, I don't think he took anything Mr. Uniform), some guys (I'm really hoping they were CSI and not grifters) show up and take a bunch of pictures of the mess and all of the... art... he made on the walls, then we had painters in this morning, but they're gone now! So I have access to my computer again!
And of course since I'm here, it's been a month since I wrote up the quizzes to begin with, so time to give it a test run!
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did? Yup.
--> Would you agree with their assessment in that context? I can understand why they thought so.
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases? Nope.
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences? Now that I think about it, I had a pretty lucid dream last night...
--> If you weren't prone to it prior to exposure, have you been sleepwalking? Only if waking up on the floor of my room in front of the door counts. Which with my luck it probably does.
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'? Nope.
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see? Not really.
Have you spoken to yourself in public? All the time.
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people? Not recently.
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself? Nothing serious.
Have you spoken to inanimate objects? Nope.
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths? Nope.
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with? Umm... no?
Have you had any violent mood swings? Nope.
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period? Changes? Not really.
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior? Nope.
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress? ...I bought a new pair of shoes, but I doubt that counts...
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues? UNUSUALLY, no. USUALLY... a tad.
--> Have you seriously wished harm upon them? Nope.
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions? Usually.
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about? I wouldn't have thought so before yesterday.
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure? I probably should start thinking that now, shouldn't I?
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input? Yup.
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human? Heh, I wish.
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'? Nope.
Have you threatened to kill anybody? Not outright.
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody? Nope.
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind? ...Yes...
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'? I like to think so.
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'? I don't like to think so.
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others? No. More just... very confused by the events leading up to them.
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others? See previous.
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world? While daydreaming.
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason? Only when joking. Hence that 'creepy' commentary above.
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake? "Lapsed memory" is also usual, but nothing like a blackout.
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues? Not indiscriminately, but I do consider myself more intelligent than most of my classmates, although this is one of those 'hard to confirm or refute' cases. Otherwise, no.
--> Have you ever called them your minions, underlings, or other derivatives of servant? No, but I feel like I should now. Mua. Ha. Ha.
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are? I think I've done a decent job of handling things maturely.
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)? Nope.
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns? Noooooo.
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter? All the time.
...Right then.
No idea what to do now.
Wait?
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
The Test
Keep in mind that I'm not saying the results of this test will definitively tell you you're insane. Some of these events could be natural behavior for you, after all, or results of circumstances otherwise beyond your control. It's not supposed to diagnose you, it's just supposed to help you keep a tally on your own mind.
Just covering all the bases here, really. And yes, I realize some are more obvious than others, it's kind of the point.
Answer the following questions with a simple "Yes" or "No". Reasoning doesn't matter. (In all likelihood, trying to justify it might end up hurting your argument more anyway.)
In the past month...
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did?
--> Would you agree with their assessment in that context?
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases?
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences?
--> If you weren't prone to it prior to exposure, have you been sleepwalking?
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'?
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see?
Have you spoken to yourself in public?
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people?
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself?
Have you spoken to inanimate objects?
--> Have you received replies?
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths?
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with?
Have you had any violent mood swings?
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period?
--> Could this change be considered positive, contrary to recent experience?
--> Could this change be considered negative?
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior?
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress?
--> Would this include a personalized logo a la comic book superheroes?
--> Do you have (X)perator symbols on every shirt, blouse, jacket, etc?
--> Would this be in a style one would probably only see in Japanese animation?
--> Do your 'casual clothes' include some form of body armor?
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues?
--> Have you seriously wished harm upon them?
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions?
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about?
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure?
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input?
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human?
--> Have there been witnesses who can confirm use of such abilities?
--> Have you rejected the laws of physics or nature, ignoring damage to the integrity of reality/the universe?
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'?
Have you threatened to kill anybody?
--> Multiple times?
--> Was it (exclusively) to deter future harmful action, i.e. "If you touch a hair on his/her head..."?
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody?
--> Multiple people?
--> Was it (exclusively) self-defense/proper defense of another human?
--> Was it pre-meditated?
--> Were you under the influence of perception-altering drugs, alcohol, 'illusions' or a Fear?
--> Did you simply "go berserk"?
--> Did you do it in the name of a 'higher being'?
--> Did you enjoy it, or otherwise find yourself unapologetic for doing it?
--> Did you cause damages to the body, post-mortem?
--> Did the victim die screaming (or attempting to do so) in what could presumably be agony?
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind?
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'?
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'?
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others?
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others?
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world?
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason?
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake?
--> When you came to your senses, were you ever covered in blood or standing over a body?
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues?
--> Have you ever called them your minions, underlings, or other derivatives of servant?
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are?
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)?
--> Did you make up the tune?
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns?
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter?
I think... that's enough for now. If you think of anything else, please do bring it up so I can tack it on for later.
I'm just gonna go sleep and hope I don't end up on the floor of my room again.
Just covering all the bases here, really. And yes, I realize some are more obvious than others, it's kind of the point.
Answer the following questions with a simple "Yes" or "No". Reasoning doesn't matter. (In all likelihood, trying to justify it might end up hurting your argument more anyway.)
In the past month...
Has anyone else outright called you 'insane', 'crazy', 'creepy', or a similar term for something you did?
--> Would you agree with their assessment in that context?
Have you simply found yourself saying "I know it sounds crazy, but..." or similar phrases?
Have you had an unusual number of nightmares, lucid dreams, or other abnormal REM occurrences?
--> If you weren't prone to it prior to exposure, have you been sleepwalking?
Have you been having what you can only describe as 'visions'?
Have you been receiving unusual sensory input, such as hearing voices/ticking or seeing creatures/figures that nobody else could hear or see?
Have you spoken to yourself in public?
--> Did this draw serious attention from other people?
--> Did this devolve into an argument with yourself?
Have you spoken to inanimate objects?
--> Have you received replies?
Have you found yourself repeating a single phrase at least three times within as many breaths?
Have you found yourself writing in code when it was either ridiculously easy to crack or unnecessary to begin with?
Have you had any violent mood swings?
Have you recently experienced any significant changes in your mood that lasted for an extended period?
--> Could this change be considered positive, contrary to recent experience?
--> Could this change be considered negative?
Have you noticed changes in your own eating behavior?
Have you made any significant changes to your wardrobe or style of dress?
--> Would this include a personalized logo a la comic book superheroes?
--> Do you have (X)perator symbols on every shirt, blouse, jacket, etc?
--> Would this be in a style one would probably only see in Japanese animation?
--> Do your 'casual clothes' include some form of body armor?
Have you recently found yourself unusually bitter towards or paranoid of your close friends and colleagues?
--> Have you seriously wished harm upon them?
Have you found yourself simply paranoid of everyday social interactions?
Have you spent abnormal amounts of time scanning scenery for potential foes while out and about?
Have you believed there was a conspiracy to kill you, someone you know, or an iconic figure?
Have you simply 'felt the presence' of Tall Pale and Faceless, another Fear, or any other supernatural forces/creatures without any other sensory input?
Have you believed you had any abnormal abilities for a human?
--> Have there been witnesses who can confirm use of such abilities?
--> Have you rejected the laws of physics or nature, ignoring damage to the integrity of reality/the universe?
Have you ever believed yourself to be something 'more than human'?
Have you threatened to kill anybody?
--> Multiple times?
--> Was it (exclusively) to deter future harmful action, i.e. "If you touch a hair on his/her head..."?
Have you ACTUALLY killed anybody?
--> Multiple people?
--> Was it (exclusively) self-defense/proper defense of another human?
--> Was it pre-meditated?
--> Were you under the influence of perception-altering drugs, alcohol, 'illusions' or a Fear?
--> Did you simply "go berserk"?
--> Did you do it in the name of a 'higher being'?
--> Did you enjoy it, or otherwise find yourself unapologetic for doing it?
--> Did you cause damages to the body, post-mortem?
--> Did the victim die screaming (or attempting to do so) in what could presumably be agony?
Have you contemplated methods of homicide or harming others, without any particular target in mind?
--> Could such methods be considered 'unusual' or 'creative'?
--> Could such methods be considered 'inhumane'?
Have you simply felt apathetic towards the painful misfortune of others?
Have you delighted in the painful misfortune of others?
While awake, have you had periods of complete unresponsiveness to the physical world?
Have you had extended periods of uncontrollable twitching for no explicable reason?
Have you had extended periods of disorientation or lapsed memory while awake?
--> When you came to your senses, were you ever covered in blood or standing over a body?
Have you indiscriminately considered yourself superior to strangers or colleagues?
--> Have you ever called them your minions, underlings, or other derivatives of servant?
Have you acted like you are, or believed yourself to be under the age that your legal documentation (i.e. birth certificate) says you are?
Have you found yourself singing or humming a song to yourself that was inappropriate for the situation (i.e. a cheery tune while fighting or killing people)?
--> Did you make up the tune?
Have you had periods where you found yourself unable to stop making puns?
Have you had periods of simply wanting to bellow out maniacal laughter?
I think... that's enough for now. If you think of anything else, please do bring it up so I can tack it on for later.
I'm just gonna go sleep and hope I don't end up on the floor of my room again.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Once a Month...
... I think I should give myself some kind of sanity test. Not like some crazy stunt that only the mad could pass or fail or whatever, just a short quiz to make sure I'm not being beaten down too hard, or to serve as an early warning system.
Preferably of the quick and easy 'yes/no' variety. If I have to write an essay, so help me, I will ramble like there's no tomorrow.
There's not much to think about here, really. I know I'm being watched by TPF, every couple days I can feel the hairs on the back of my neck rise on their own accompanied by sudden changes in temperature, HHIZ own special blend of nausea and... well, you get the idea. It's possible that's just me being paranoid, but is there really anything that distinguishes the two?
So what do you do when a faceless pseudo-Lovecraftian horror who drives people utterly mad is bearing down on your life? Keep an eye on your sanity, like a micro-manager playing Amnesia: The Dark Descent.
At least until you die. Problem here is no restarts,but I can live with that waitasecond...
Course, the flaw here is if I take a sudden leap off the deep end after some traumatic event. Then gradual monitoring doesn't really do much good to prepare me for it.
Problem is finding out what questions to ask myself... and I suppose it'd be worthwhile to post the results here. I really can't see any point in hiding from Proxies and Runners how my brain is holding up after all- being nervous or going completely bonkers would show through anyway!
Any suggestions?
Preferably of the quick and easy 'yes/no' variety. If I have to write an essay, so help me, I will ramble like there's no tomorrow.
There's not much to think about here, really. I know I'm being watched by TPF, every couple days I can feel the hairs on the back of my neck rise on their own accompanied by sudden changes in temperature, HHIZ own special blend of nausea and... well, you get the idea. It's possible that's just me being paranoid, but is there really anything that distinguishes the two?
So what do you do when a faceless pseudo-Lovecraftian horror who drives people utterly mad is bearing down on your life? Keep an eye on your sanity, like a micro-manager playing Amnesia: The Dark Descent.
At least until you die. Problem here is no restarts,
Course, the flaw here is if I take a sudden leap off the deep end after some traumatic event. Then gradual monitoring doesn't really do much good to prepare me for it.
Problem is finding out what questions to ask myself... and I suppose it'd be worthwhile to post the results here. I really can't see any point in hiding from Proxies and Runners how my brain is holding up after all- being nervous or going completely bonkers would show through anyway!
Any suggestions?
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